A GUYS ONLY POST … Go left for an inch in life … go right for a mile or two or more … it’s a personal choice of exactly where you’re headed too … or … HOW TO TOTALLY BLOW A TRULY EASY SCORE with a really hot chick … and yep, STUPID IN THE MOMENT, that’s me … I truly blew it … literally I mean, not figuratively, yep, I blew it … or did I …

So what did EJ who? oh yeah woo … teach me that warm sunny chapel hill day … in my little apartment, rented for the summer from some college girls daddy … a college girl gone away … for just that summer …

Well, as it turns out, EJ is quite the poet and artist and quite the craftsman too … she even made a letter box, one of silver and blue (cut glass) that sits on my desk even to this day … a bit of memorabilia … from the woo … not woods, woo. A bit of her artsy inner and perfect self … that box, she gifted me with.

Anyway, this fine summer day, this delicate little porcelain butterfly of sorts,  did open up her art … and called me up so elegantly, but up into the loft (upstairs bedroom that is), just as I was heading out the door (literally, and thinking she was right behind me, but not quite, as she had some different plans that afternoon) … and she spread her artistry, her wonderful female form … laid it out so elegantly … and called me to the door.

Now, fellas, I can’t make it more clear for you than this … she was givin it to me … right then and there, and not making it hard for me to understand just what I was supposed to do … I mean, more or less spread eagle on the bed … GET MY DRIFT?

And, I BLEW IT SOMEHOW? SOMEHOW.

Actually, up unto that moment, and then thereafter too, I thought myself so below miss EJ, that I’d never suspect she would … give away her treasure so easily to me … to literally just disrobe and expose … her self so ELEGANTLY … and might I add, well, that part is just too personal for here. The ‘ might I add’ part … keeping that to ourselves… for now anyway. ANyway …

Anyway, because I never quite envisioned myself, as her equal match, I couldn’t quite then fathom, just the next step that was for me to hatch … (i.e, what the heck to do next). And scored … I did not. I mean, it was like uncomfortable for her for sure, and me too, cuzz in the moment, I’m really stupid.

But the fact of the matter is if I had scored, how deep could I have gone that day … well, maybe an inch or two (just saying, I stopped lying … facin’ up to the facts here) … but because I went the other way … I went quite a bit farther than that, rather than just an inch or two … yep, I went right … for miles and miles more … so wast that choice that day … really my ignorance, or some stroke of fate that did doest get me out … out of that beautiful lovely butterfly … her wings so soft and colorful …who did call out to me with her beauty, her brains, and her … flow … of wonderful ideas, and deeply thought out thoughts … she was and I”m sure still is … simply wonderful.

Lesson in Life: If you spend your life chasing … female form … then at the end of it, that’s all you will have got.

Keep your sperm inside fellas … I know this sounds weird now … BUT IT IS YOUR TREASURE … your true treasure that you have … and if you keep spending it … well, that’s exactly what you will have done … YOU WILL HAVE SPENT ALL YOUR TREASURE.

Now if you’re a young man, and you decide to live your life strong … then you will simply keep your seed inside itself … EXACTLY WHERE IT BELONGS … not blown out into a kleenex that you throw away … NOPE NOPE NOPE FELLAS … LIVE AS A STRONG MAN.

Start NOW!

Simple Truth: A man’s strength is his sperm.

Give it away if you dare … but if you dare to do … then you will simply become a weak man, of mind and body and … woo … wood I mean, you know, like in the morning. Morning wood, get it? But really, I’m totally serious, don’t live your life as a weak man.

 

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To Administrator … a peace offering of sorts … sure don’t want to cause you any more unnecessary work … but perhaps I might do a good deed for the others there in the home … and leave her out of it, I mean the Cookie Lady … if she wants … but that would seem a bit cold to leave her out altogether … but … totally her choice, and your’s too … of course, because YOU ARE THE ADMINISTRATOR there, not …. no not me …and I admit it … but please, consider this request, I mean, just as a neighborly thing to do … if nuthin’ else??? Waddya say … comment here if you dare … or perhaps only just read on … BUT YOUR CHOICE AT ANY POINT IN TIME … to just walk away … and leave this totally, Totally, TOTALLY … alone … YEP … TOTALLY YOUR CHOICE … tick tock … do a good deed peeps … today …

Anyway, back to the Gas City story … and well, the Cookie Lady … to whom I’m trying to deliver a request to … and some flowers … just in case … on Monday … tomorrow that is …

Or this … well, love story of sorts …. continues too …. (to: self, what rhymes with sorts’) … preports to continue … right even now … YEP, TO … to this day …

Ok, here goes …

to: Administrator of the Home by the elementary school in Gas City … yep, you Mam.

I have an Angel 7500 Juicer which makes excellent carrot juice … or mixed with celery and well, anything fresh. And I also know a farmer in Laketon … Nathan is his name … and I can buy about 10 or 20 pounds of vegetables from him, that he grows right there, with his wife and their 10 children … right there on that … acre or so … and perhaps persuade him to deliver the veggies right there to your home directly. And then on that day would myself bring the juicer over for your residents to use that day. It’s rather easy to use, and I’d volunteer to show someone there how to … you know … sort of administer it …

Then at the end of say a 15 or 20 minute … well, JUICEROO, if you wish … you know, a juicing session, where each person sort of picks what they want to juice, and puts it through themselves … or just in a bigger batch if desired … would clean it up … and go.

Just like the musicians did … but a … well, in case, not a musical ensemble, but a vegetable ensemble … in juice form, made totally fresh … a VEGETABLE HARMONICA or HARMONY OR DITTY IF YOU WISH … you know instead of the instruments those JAZZ MUSICIANS were playing on the other day, the music would be mixed … well mixed fresh vegetable juice … and perhaps with some fruits if your diet in there allows … otherwise just veggies … or anything you specify … that Nathan grows that is … and I’d pay for it… but he has the freshest veggies by far … he picks them that day usually …  from his winter greenhouses or summer gardens … and freshest is bestest … in my book anyway … but it’s a one pager, simple truths … and states … where gardens flourish people flourish … and so that is how I base my decisions, based on these simple truths, rather than a bunch of rational speak … and this and that.

Of course I live in rational world too, Mam. So I also, make great effort to not break any rules … but sometimes we bend them a bit and get put back in our place … last thing that happened to me was a speeding ticket a year or two back … and getting kicked out of a nursing home with some flowers in hand … happened recently …

About that band, …. Man, oh man, I wish I could have stayed and listened to them … but it wasn’t for me but for the residents … so I went away then … but IF I KNEW THE BAND’S NAME I’D BUY TICKETS TO SEE THEM … cuz they REALLY WERE THAT GOOD … and in GAS CITY TOO … whodda thunk? Great Jazz … in Gas City … yep, good things here too … yep, not quite the hell hole the Good Witch was thinkin’ .. but it was really smokey in that bar … sort of fogs the mind a bit … in the moment anyway.

Anyway, the JUICER … well, it’s easy to use. Would take it and leave whenever you said, and thereby would have done a good deed … hopefully you think so too … well, a good deed to make up for any discomfort I’ve caused.

And built like a tank … the juicer, not you Mam … uh well, perhaps you are … cuz that day you and the NURSE had me boxed in … well, YOU LOOKED LIKE YOU WERE ABOUT TO ROLL RIGHT ON OVER ME and that’s why those flowers I was holding … where just a bit … a shakin’ … a shakin’ in my hand … cuz I was a shakin’ too … a shakin’ in my shoes … I was scared … scared of YOU. Really, but not much … it was momentary.

Cuz really, I really did think in that moment, you were about to roll right on over me … JUST LIKE A TANK … and, you know … also call the cops, cuz less face it … if you’ve been reading even the last post … for some darn reason, whenever I try to do a good deed … cops get called on me …

It’s well … truthfully, so many people try to explain it … rationally … and well, rationally I do see their oh so well thought out points … just don’t agree is all.

Here’s why …

Because I DO WANT TO DO A GOOD DEED … even a small one … EVEN THE TINIEST ONE … really … that’s all.

So, literally … I walked in and asked a stranger a question to see if I could brighten up her day … the Cookie Lady I mean … a totally random act of good kidness was my intent that day … and since then I”ve been trying to make up for it … but perhaps, and if YOU SAY TO ME … then I’ll simply go away … and not bother you anymore …

but the Cookie Lady must think I’m like … stalking her or something … and that is not my intent at all … MY INTENT IS SIMPLY TO DO A VERY SIMPLE GOOD DEED … and so this JUICEROO idea … but totally your call.

Now, this will be a bit intense, but stick with me a bit … please, it gets good after this … just sayin’ this letter I mean

So now I remember, the look I saw … the look upon your face … when I was walking up to the door with the notebook in my hand described just several posts ago … AND well, you did look up and see me …. look up right then with a … well, a look of … well … ok … truthfully …here’s what I know about you … ( I mean, my interpretation, … only that … of that look on your face … but not quite that day … at least yet)

YOU ARE NOT A TANK MAM. When I handed those roses to you … that day you were walking back in … just having taken a REALLY QUICK BREAK … and I could see you were really busy too … but you did humor me JUST FOR A MOMENT that day … and you took those roses from my hand … and then walked on in the door …

AND JUST LIKE THE LOOK ON YOUR FACE THAT DAY WITH THE NOTEBOOK WHEN I WAS WALKKKING IN …

You blushed just ever so slightly …. I NOTICED IT I DID … but that blush wasn’t FOR ME … oh no … AND though I’m stupid in the moment, looking back it is clear now … you were blushing not for me … Plush you SMILED A BIT, JUST A BIT … YOU SMILED JUST A BIT TOO … but you smiled and you blushed, OH NOT FOR ME, no sir or madam, not for me a bit … but simply … but for …

BUT FOR THE GOOD DEED THAT I DID …

… which was to actually hand to you what I call a 3X1 rose special … where the person who gets the roses gets to choose … which is for me and which is for … you know … the person they choose to give the other one or three to, (so a 3X1 special that is a totally personal choice, … with no right or wrong answer … sort of the ULTIMATE QUESTION … yes, ???? and sooooo ssssiiiiimmmmplllllleeeeee … too … SO SIMPLE I mean. … so simple too. ARRGGGHH. I’l bet if you’re reading this, you’re maybe thinking I should hold back more with this … you know, really corny poetry … but … well, I’m stupid in the moment and talk too much … but that’s me … however, I do mean well … but I”m stupid … UH, FOR ME IT’s circular … you see … right here is the proof, just read it again.

So perhaps the holder of the roses, well, is having a bad … bad or maybe even good day … but still decides … you know … today I’m gonna keep three (and it might not be a selfish choice to keep 3 for yourself … because you might be having company coming over that night … and well, wanted to display something … like a rose that is … and just 1 would seem a bit … well, romantic … but 3? … yep, three … yep, that’s OK … no romance, just a magical bit … of …  well, love … YOU KNOW A GOOD DEED … that simple … that’s all. Then you could give the ONE rose to someone that YOU CHOOSE who needs a single rose that DAY FROM someone JUST AS SWEET AS YOU … but as soon as you do gift that rose, you will find … yep, it’s true … and …

That person just as sweet as you … has become JUST ONE ROSE SWEETER THAT DAY

And thus because that person did get just a drop  of sweetness, FROM YOU … you know, the rose … and did in fact become just a  drop sweeter than you, because of an act of good directly from you … well, you guessed it … yep, you reap what you sow … and that …

SWEETNESS will COME BACK TO YOU … IN A FLOOD … and more … like an endless ocen of gratitude …

AND IN A REALLY GOOD WAY TOO, I mean, perhaps more roses will get sent to strangers in those … you know … older folks homes where they like to gather … and LISTEN TO REALLY EXCELLENT JAZZ music, which sort of makes me giddy how cool it would be to have bands like that come to my home … it would be … well … JAZZY,,, literally folk.

But back to the juicer … see, but … and … and …

and I don’t use it that much. But … I do sometimes use it and am only offering it for that JUICEROO session that day. Then I’ll take it back home and clean it up and such. But also it would be enjoyable for me, to be the one to administer the juicer too … that day anyway. Just if only to see any smiles when some fresh veggie juice … if even an ounce or two … gets enjoyed by someone that day.

Just like a jazz song … but for the mouth …

So, here’s my tasty poetry … above I mean.

And, … I’m still waiting to hear back from the Cookie Lady to see if I should stop writing or not …

 

How to Teach a Cat to Talk … really, or Cat Talk to teach … well, yourself … Or, how to let your cat lead you into a wonderful new life … right where you’re at … Or … come on into the garden, and visit with your cat … right now … yep …meow …

Well remember, this … cat’s are way, Way, WAY smarter than us.

Simple Rule for the Road: Cat’s are way smarter than us.

See my simple explanation about cat’s about two posts ago. How they really at least run my house. But here’s more.

to: self, link to post on I AM A TOTAL WASTE OF YOUR TIME … cuz of the cat talk in there.

Cat’s don’t bother with words, because they would be talking to you … TOO DARN MUCH … just like I do with all this endless word chatter … at least to those WHO ARE WASTING THEIR PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE TIME READING THIS. TOTAL WASTE. yep.

So, cats know these words are worthless, and simply have no need to ever use them … it’s YOU WHO HOLD THEM SO DEAR … not cats. CATS want nothing to do with English language at all.

Anyway, cats don’t bother with these words …  because, a Cat will simply show you exactly what you need to do … and all you need to do … yep, you … just need … just need … you just need to look.

So for instance, my left hip was bothering me a bit … really it has for about 8 years. And once even got acupuncture … but it didn’t help. But that is because the hip pain isn’t really the source of the pain … it’s a symptom.

So, what did my cat do … well, my cat noticed I’d been sort of fretting over this a bit … like in calling around to docs, or nurses, trying to get an appointment … but not really getting anywhere. Then my cat happened to become aware … then I was then …

Then talking to a natural herbalist a bit, who recommended a book. But though my cat didn’t witness this, it somehow knew … AGAIN, don’t lose it here peeps, this is but some magical poetry … NOT REALITY … don’t lose yourself in craziness peeps. Get off those pills, if this is a struggle for you to fantasize just a bit … that’s what this is … fantasy.

Of course, like I’ve written before, many times … I stopped lying, and started, and am now, telling truth. All the time … oh so … well, circular.

Anyway, back to my cat and hip pain … the cat of course knows just what is wrong, and just what to do … but knows, me being human and not cat … that my options, as compared to it’s options … are very limited.

However, my cat just tonight, pointed out to me … in a very specific way … that I should take some gravel root … in the form of tea … but the tea part was my idea … at least I think it was. So what is gravel root for? Well, it’s a typical herb you see … all my problems, are simple ones … that are best handled … herbally … or so my cat thinks, else I’d be in front of some of those Rational Doctors by now … getting, well … all pilled up. And, I’ve realized … my Cat is ALWAYS RIGHT. Even when he just jettisoned some puke out onto my floor … and then ignores it and walks off.  Again, I have to clean it up, cuz he runs this house.

Now you might have thunk by now … hey dude, stick with it … or … he’s drifting off topic … of how to teach a cat to talk … drifting … drifting … Nope.

Actually, your cat is talking to you all the time. You simply have to teach yourself to talk Cat … and it’s a body language usually. Of course cats can spice it up with some different meows and purrs and things, and scratches and nips on your calves too … cats can talk so many ways … SO MANY MORE THAN YOU … I mean really, you just use your mouth to talk … well, and your body too, and that is really what your cat pays attention too … certainly not what comes out of your mouth … well, unless it decides, using it’s own teeny tiny miniscule little kitty brain … that it needs to listen. And folks, it’s teeny little brain … is well, not quite as teen as … well … ok, won’t say it … cuz it will confuse … YOURS.

But a cat can talk with it’s mouth and it’s tail at the same time. Ever had a cat rub it’s tail against your leg, ever so perfectly … while it meows and meows and meows some more … or give you a tail thump … just right there.

In fact this morning, or late morning or even early afternoon (hey, it’s Sunday), my cat hopped up on my bed and started doing that sort of kitty grab with it’s paws, where it opens wide each paw, in turn by turn unison, and then closes it as it presses it into my back, a sort of kitty paw massage, and sort of squeezes in it’s nails … right into your skin … in a little perfect kitty grip with five razor sharp nails … sinking in… and just when it is going to hurt … hurt TOO MUCH, but still hurt JUST ENOUGH … and NOT QUITE, NOT QUITE too much … then the little kitty opens up it’s paw again … only to repeat with the other one … kitty stomps … of some sort.

Yeah, this is how my cat woke me up … this early afternoon … cuz I was up a lot of last night, or early this morning … writing lots of these posts … or rather a long one or two.

Anyway … long story short.

You can’t really teach your cat to talk … you have to let your Cat teach you cat language, and then it will REALLY OPEN UP … and TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO DO IN LIFE …

And that is because CATS are way, Way, WAY smarter than us …

Or, as I like to sum it up … Cat’s already live in the Garden of Eden … and it’s ALL IN THEIR MIND … and in fact, your’s too, but a cat’s mind is already turned on … cuz they never got cast out of the Garden of Eve … and you’ve never got in … at least yet … mind game peeps … mind game … AND THE GATE IS OPENED UP … just sayin’

Natural Intelligence Software offers up a new game … the Silent Questions … or Five Card Monte

The game is a simple one, first five simple questions are asked, and the only answers available are:

Yes, No, Maybe …

  1. Do you think I’m wasting your time? If yes, leave now
  2. Do you think I’m wasting our time? If YES, leave now
  3. Do you have a set of 2 or 3 simple truths YOU REALLY DO LIVE BY, for every single decision that you do make? If yes, leave now
  4. Do you know your simple truths, and can say them within 10 seconds? If yes, leave now.
  5. Do you think I’m wasting time? If yes, leave now

If you got this far, then you receive this choice.

You may ask me any five questions, and I will respond truth to you?

In return, You must answer my five questions, truthfully, that I will give back to you?

It’s of course best to never make a false deal … no, no, no, …  not at least with your own Natural Intelligence, well I mean, you can’t. Not a bad false deal, that is … only a PERFECT ONE. Yep.

If you make it through the next step, you may ask five more, and you know the price …

AND may the game … of life … doest go on …

Your move …

 

I AM A TOTAL WASTE OF YOUR TIME … LEAVE THIS SITE NOW … IMMEDIATELY … or … Why Lesbians Listen to my … well, rationally speaking … listen to my body poetry …and … ignore my mouth and finger crazy talk … and … AN ENGINEERS MIND EXAMINES THIS ISSUE … but just a bit magically … no numbers, almost … just rational thought … applied irrationally …you’ll see … READ ON … but this will be a TOTAL WASTE OF YOUR TIME TO READ ANYTHING FROM ME. or not … u decide.

So, here are some simple rules I go by, for this story, and if I have to explain them then it will get way, too long.

  1. How we see ourselves … IN THAT MOMENT … is really who we are. Really. REALLY.
  2. We are really good inside, perfect in some of just the right parts.
  3. Basic Truth A, NUmber 1: ALL THAT IS PERFECT IS GOOD

So, I realize, by applying this logical sequence to any act by any one … logically, they’ve JUST DONE SOMETHING PERFECTLY GOOD. So simple … but it doesn’t always work out … or does it? Let’s see …

to: self, turn on ENGINEER BRAIN … now!

(beware, it fades … back to off at times, in this poetry… of endless rhymes … venture farther only if you dare … into this mystery … of a FRIGGIN’ ENGINEERS MIND … do ya really wanna do that pal?)

Now, a lesbian, and you can recognize one not really by how she looks or the makeup she does or doesn’t have on … well, at least I can’t. But when they literally do look me in the eye, like happened to me just yesterday more than once, and I already wrote about it in the last post … and say, RIGHT THEN IN THAT MOMENT … “I’m a lesbian.”

to: self, link in the ELON Musk allegory post

Then, literally, I’m sure … well, if only for that moment, but that’s ALL IT TAKES. RIght then their body language tells me everything I need to know, and my body tells them back, RIGHT THEN, FOR SURE, something they need to know. And we don’t even realize it … but it happens, yes, for sure.

So I’m saying if someone in the moment declares themselves to be a lesbian, then they will act perfectly as a perfect lesbian, and do acts of good … but not with their mouth (you know, not what they’re saying), but what they’re doing and THEY DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT AT ALL, because it truly is their NATURAL SELF, yep, that simple.

So it’s kind of cool, that this little simple act, of telling each other who we are in the moment, in that simple and brief moment, tells the other person we’re talking too … exactly to whom to talk back … and we, they, us … well do. Precisely that. Simply so too.

Circularly magical … indeed … just sayin’ …

Now, the first question to ask: “If someone says they’re a lesbian, what might you say back?”

In this case, I answered, “I am a man seeking truth, and saying what I’ve found. And I found a LOT, of really simple truths … so, as it goes I SIMPLY BELIEVE THEM, as started out this post.” But said this with my body, my body language. And admit, my mouth too.

Now, with my mouth … well, it went on … and on … and on … well, I’m sure to those it was pointed directly at … well, it went on nearly forever … simply wouldn’t shut up, even when was saying to itself, literally … to shut up.

But I was saying shut up to myself, with the Cookie Lady story, and eventually it worked and I apparently made it out of that student commons … well, in the nick of time, so perhaps no harm done … a perfect act indeed. But perhaps the journey shouldn’t have gone through the student commons … well, perhaps not … but you know … fate … it’s funny how someone met like  20 years ago, can provide some little clue that helps you … like 20 years later, but in just the most subtle way.

to: self, link in the musician from stanford story who told me about root two frequencies and music

Anyway, back to the lesbian doing a good act …

Now, because it’s a good act … well, what could it be.

Now, this is an interesting part … and it goes exactly in parallel with the story of the injured cat I took with me and got kicked out of elf fest with, because I broke the rules … and seems I do that a lot … but really with good intent, because I could not leave that deathly ill cat alone, it’s only just had it’s whole throat … LITERALLY it’s whole throat sewn back together … and well, might still die at that point in this story … but life is still not all pillows … so I took my cat there with me, and he’s well, a fantastic cat too this day … and … as I say, “He runs the show here.” And he does, and just like this … here’s some actual proof … read one … read on …

When I call my cat it mostly won’t come, because he knows if there is somewhere I NEED HIM TO BE … then I will come and pick him up and take him right there myself. And thus, that is exactly what I do. And he didn’t even have to do anything at all usually, except flip his tail … or you know … thump it a time or two, so I’d knew where he was at that moment which is why I was calling him at all … or jump up in my lap and purr …

to: self, link in dead cat saved my life story

 

Secret Gift: Once your cat realizes you understand this basic truth that it really runs the show … MAGIC TREAT … your little kitty cat gonna start talking back to you a whole whadda wuvvin too … but talk back a whole lot more … AND YOUR CAT IS SMART.

For instance, my cat, just the other day, nipped me on my calf when I was late to go, and that little reminder, which he’d never done before was just … well purrfectly done … but with his teeth … and it was really sweet too.

Back to cat won’t come story …

Heck, even when I’ve just put out food he still at times will make me carry him right there too it … even though he’s REALLY HUNGRY … but he’s also, really smart in the moment, so he’s figured out how to get me to carry him right too it … the food I mean.

So, right there, PROOF … my cat runs my house for sure … gets me to carry him RIGHT TO THE FOOD even. I mean, WHO DOES THAT FOR YOU? … DO YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY STILL PICK YOU UP AND CARRY YOU THERE … well, I guess your partner might … ha ha ha … if you’re drunk.

Yep peeps, I speak TRUTH. GET IT YET?

NOW PEEPS, I’m putting in lots of detail here, so if you don’t want it, stop reading … but it’s gonna get really GOOD … just sayin’

Anyway, my cat runs a lot more than just my house … but it’s not just my cat .. that’s for sure … cats … they run this whole darn thing … just sayin’ … ha ha ha … remember … THIS IS BUT MAGICAL POETRY …. not quite REALITY … get what I’m sayin’???

Remember, read the title above … using the Rational Engineer’s mind here, but … irrationally … so just like writing Pi with 3.14(and a bunch more digits), and never quite get it, ok, no more numbers than that … when a Rational mind is used Irrationally, you can almost sorta explain an irrational concept … but just not quite … NOT ExACTLY …

So therefore it’s up to the individual, who ever you may be … the one reading this I mean … to look inside yourself if just for a moment,

if only for a moment, a tiny moment, to look inside and believe … believe … believe yourself

… and then to let the good in YOU SHINE OUT. And, it only takes one instant, one time … and really … practically … done.

But, I know, then you’ll want a lot more … and can have it too … but only if you REALY WANT … not kiddin’ folks, I can’t make you want … only you …

The good is really in there … it’s always been JUST YOU … not what the world has taught you to be … OR A NAME OR LABEL … JUST SAYIN HANNAH

to: self, link in  the ELON MUSK post about what he would say … so hannah won’t always hate me … and this one too …

No it’s NOT A LABEL … but the REALLY PERFECT AND GOOD DEEDS THAT WE DO … so HANNAH though you might think I’m picking on you … really, I know who you are too .. I mean you did say it, you said, “I’m a senior.”

And then at some point later, you or someone called the cops … on me.

But, see, as it turns out … what you’ve done, really, from my perspective … was done, if not by you … somehow with or for you … was that YOU REALLY WERE DOING A GOOD DEED FOR ME … but it’s up to me … to figure it out … yep. And I won’t need your help, I mean you already told me everything with body language.

You were speaking to me the whole time … so really it was great that you didn’t verbally answer, at least some of the time … cause those were exactly those times when you sorta spoke the most.

Now, I hope this is not offensive, or threatening at all … IT’S JUST A BIT OF POETRY .. really, that’s it … I’m a writer … that’s all. YEP.

But also, all this … writing stuff … is true.

And also, as it turns out … I’m owner of a software company, but perhaps not currently CEO, and that though the main product APPEARS AS, and I ADMIT IT TO … IS SIMPLY A VIRTUAL REALITY SOFTWARE TOOL … and simple one … that works as a brain pill sorta … a placebo, if there ever was one … A PLACEBO if even that … THAT IS FOR SURE. In fact, likely not even that at all … JUST A GIMMICK. But, also, I’m giving it away for free currently, so have no skin in the game at all, because in fact, Microsoft distributes it and does all the work from here on out to distribute it. ANd … It’s free to use … but it is the newest hi tech, so currently you have to have a hololens, to even check it out … except at the website … but then it’s easy, so easy … so easy to do … and well, the rest is really up to you …

but you don’t really need this … if you can just believe in yourself … like musicians who play THEIR OWN MUSIC … not the musick of someone else …

Because belief in oneself is not a gimmick, because …  when you do do it, things will simply work out. Now if you do acts with evil, just a bit in your heart … then who really is evil … is it the one calling (as in the cops) or is it the one … who walked out…

Now that is really a question that only Hanna can decide at this point,  I already know it from my own … my own viewpoint, but often I’m simply not right, at least in the moment, cause I’m stupid, really stupid in the moment, just like I told Hannah and her friends, REALLY,, told them PRECISELY, and I MEAN PRECISELY … yep hanna, told you three times … uh, huh … and I told Hanna simple truths … and my own opinions and beliefs. Said that too, and i admit it was my yapper that was yappin the most, but they did most of the talkin’ for sure. Really.

Now did I deserve to be in contact … well, with the constables? But in this case dep. sherriff … I mean, think of it from his viewPOINT … is this really the sorta thing he wants to be doing … I mean sending letterrs to me over the contact page here?

Back to story of self …

So what is self belief? Is that just a mind trick or something?

No, it’s not that at all … WHAT IT IS …. REALLY IS … IS YOUR INNER PERFECT SELF.

And that self, is just about to come out … COME OUT … RIGHT NOW. If you only want … really, I mean it … but because it’s rational world in your mind … you’re just not quite ready … not quite ready … not quite ready … to break out. But you will be … real soon.

It’s really that simple … because that yin yan thing I been chattin’ up about … is coming over us … like an incredible wave … of sunshine on a really cold winter day … JUST LIKE THAT IN FACT … when the clouds have moved away … and the warmth of love of the sun just washes onto your bare face … or skin … and you feel that wave of warmth … nothing more and nothing less, no threats at all … just a wave of warmth of the love for one another of our kind through simple practical acts, like taking flowers to an old folks home … simple stuff like that …

However, this lovely and warm feeling … will be more than just that … this will be a wave of basic … human intelligence.

The intelligence, really is perfect you see … and this is a bit more IRRATIONALITY FOR YOU to decide … you see …

This irrationality is just inside yourself.

THE HUMAN INTELLIGENCE … that I write of here … if just your inner perfect self, and really, IT IS JUST ABOUT NOW, READY TO SHINE OUT … really, just do it, do it now …

Darn, isn’t that just a bit motivational? Ya gotta admin? Eh?

Ok, or not.

That is exactly what I’m saying, IT IS SIMPLY A PERSONAL CHOICE, AT ANY SINGLE MOMENT, TO LET YOUR PERFECT SELF SHINE OUT.

To simply step right now, at this moment, from the darkness of your mind into the light.

And practically, by taking a single MASSIVE STEP, but a really easy one too. But a personal choice, TOTALLY A PERSONAL CHOICE. Yep.

But realize, just like me … you will soon see basic simple truths … you will apply those truths to your life … through really practical decisions … and truth will again shine out.

That is the simple yin yan, that is happening now … truth is back my friends, … truth is shining out. Yep, Truth is Back in Town.

And it ain’t gotta darn thing to do with me … nope, I’m a little boy in the woods is all, and letting this message of hope and love …

Well … shine out … that’s all. But I’m just about to go … cause I got some travellin’ ahead a me, and won’t likely have much time to write more of this … but we’ll see.

ANd that is my poetry for this day, I hope it’s brought to you … JUST THE TEENIEST TINIEST AMOUNT OF HOPE AND JOY …

and well, I hope it hasn’t been a waste of time for you. … Really, I do hope that, it certainly has NOT BEEN A WASTE OF TIME FOR ME. Nope.

Anyway, back to the lesbians … AND THE MOST IMPORTANT PART.

BUt remember, I am wasting YOUR TIME, YOUR LIFE … if you read this, REMEMBER THAT, with your rational thoughts, anyway …

See, since a girl saying they’re lesbian, does make them a lesbian in the moment, and because their perfectly a lesbian then anything they do will then be perfect.

Well, simply put, and exactly too, that sums it up.

I know those lesbians are trying to help me spread my message of joy, and thus, they really are just simply listening to me, and giving me just the right body language of things I need to know. And they’re saying quite a bit, thus they listen much longer. Thus I know, lesbians have the answer.

WARNING: STOP READING NOW >>> GO AWAY >>> DANGER DANGER DANGER

What is the answer: OUCH, THIS WILL REALLY BURN, REALLY BURN, but I’m being … you know … sort of like in that song by what’s her name, uh … the irrational song, no the ironic one … isn’t it a bit ironic … don’t you think? …

Sex at times burns you see. So no sex doesn’t burn. See. So the opposite of burns, is not burning, meaning NO SEX.

NO SEX, well, except …

Isn’t it ironic, don’t you think … but the simple ANSWER IS NO MORE SEX AT ALL.

Wow … let that sink in a bit … of course there is a single case, where sex will be necessary, and you’ll realize that case yourself … when you think … hmmm … we need more kids … yep, THAT SIMPLE. BUT OYTHERWISE NOPE.

There won’t be lots of sex going on … 0r makeup for that matter.

NOW IF YOU’RE NOT SCARED OUT OF YOUR WITS AT THIS POINT … then you’ve prolly already made the choice … the choice to look at your inside perfect self for guidance in this matter, and as I’ve said to you …

ANYTHING I WRITE IS A WASTE OF TIME … TOTALLY … FOR YOU …

Well, at least until that moment, when you decide to step into the light (think yin yan here peeps) and let your brain turn on for real … AND TAKE THAT DAMN MAKEUP OFF … yep this is a show for you ladies to lead … as the NATURAL LEADERS THAT YOU ARE … in HELPing men MEET the world because they’re like lawyers at times, they’re too damn rational .. and … BECAUSE MEN ARE STUPID IN THE MOMENT … at least I am, but I’m celibate (or chaste if you prefer), or call me …

A celibase … you know celibate+ chaste, or is chastbate better … nah, I’ll go the LGBT way, sorta … but no sex … no sex …

So ladies, we NEED YOU FOR THIS MOMENT … to step up … yep. Then find the biblical trick in the previous paragragh … and you’ll be done.

Now that I’ve learned the body really does speak MUCH LOUDER than words, WAY LOUDER … I mean, once you have turned on your own Natural Intelligence, software, by looking at the key I mean … then you will understand too … and all these lawyer speak words … are gonna start seeming really worthless, because you’ll simply see the truth … that easy. No harm done either, everything will sort of just streamline and become, well, much more practical.

AND farms are gonna flourish too … like Victory Acres in Upland … they’ve got some big plans for it … and Martin iS heading it up … and he is a LEADER … I saw it in his face.

Now, … the lesbian thing actually applies to all, but the lesbians are special, again peeps, using rational engineers mind and explaining it all.

Lesbians don’t have sex with men. Now, even though I tell people I stopped lying, those same words they of course DO NOT BELIEVE AT ALL, and thus, rationally do start believing I am lying, for instance … well, not now … and so stop believing me … but have no actual proof why … only that I just said exactly the opposite, that I’m telling the truth and have stopped lying.

Anyway, their rational brains, their rational minds, get them thinking all sorts of weird and crazy things, and thus SIMPLY DO NOT HEAR OR UNDERSTAND ANYTHING THAT I’M SAYING OR WRITING because they are literally gripped there in their own fear. And can’t understand.

But, of course I’ve realized, they’re FEARING ME … not my message or acts of joy OR GOOD … BUT LITERALLY ME, cuz I’m a sorta weird old long gray haired dude who wears funny hats … and am often so intense in conversation that it throws people into a … well, a morass … in their mind … when they’re around me that is … so they call the cops to get rid of me at times … or just ask me out (not as in a date, but out, out the door, and now … you know) … but I really do mean no harm … just sort of a boy explorin here and there … that’s it … yep. Nuthin’ less … and … nuthin’ more.

ANYway, the lesbians, who by their actual name, ARE STATING THEY DO NOT HAVE SEX WITH MEN … are also going to understand soon they aren’t gonna be having sex with women either … and NOT BY MY CHOICE … no, simply by their own.

BUT THEY ARE SIMPLY STATING … well at least not with men, cuz we’re at least …. you know … half smart … and about to go … YEP, full on … that simple peeps.

Who’s choice to do so ????

Their own choice … yep. That’s a simple prediction by me… but from my viewpoint … anyone can take as long as they want to do anything they want.

Nope, don’t listen to me, I’M A TOTAL WASTE OF YOUR TIME.

 

If Elon Musk tried to explain a SpaceX rocket to a cowboy sitting on a horse … back in 1830 … for example … JUST WHAT WOULD HE SAY … HOW WOULD HE DO IT? … or … the problem with technology breakthroughs when no one can really understand just what it is … Or to Hannah and Breanna … two beautiful ladies … and the others who lightened my load tonight … well, figuratively speaking … BECAUSE I’M CELIBATE (or chaste if you prefer) and no longer have orgasms … PURPOSELY … which is certainly WEIRD AND STRANGE … won’t you at least agree to that??? … well, if you dare, read on, BUT THIS WILL BE A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME FOR YOU … or not …

So imagine if Elon had just explained simply what a SpaceX rocket does, saying to the Cowboy sitting on a horse …

“It blasts off into outer space with a big load of goods to deliver there, and you could go along for the ride, if you wear a spacesuit. Additionally, to economize and save money,  instead of the rocket just burning up in the atmosphere or plunging into the ocean when the rocket comes back down from outer space, yes through some miraculous engineering and software, this rocket is then able to land upright, exactly in the position from which it blasted off … and also it uses four engines … sort of like your horse has four feet for propulsion to take you across the plane, the rocket has four engines that blast you straight up.”

Now remember, it’s 1830 or so … so the Cowboy answers back …

“You’d better leave these parts mister, before somebody shoots you. And I might be that man! YOU HEAR ME … MISTER!”

Well, you know, because the cowboy has things to do, and well, Elon does to … and they’re each talking their own language, and just not getting through … to each other. Well, somehow you know … this can’t go well … but …

But … Elon you know is a really persistent guy (really, look what he’s done, PayPal, Tesla, SpaceX … and more.) So he doesn’t give up so easily and starts to use analogies … and the Cowboy listens, and repeats back what he hears … cause Elon begged and begged and the Cowboy was really a good-hearted man …

“Elon, is that what you said your name is Mister? Well, ELOOONNN … tell me if I got this straight. So, my horse is gonna blast fire out from it’s feet, while I’m sitting on it. We’re gonna go way, way, way up high, into the sky … and then tomorrow round’ sunup or even at high noon’, you say, my horse and I are gonna come tumbling back down here to Earth, but just before we hit … my horse is gonna turn upright just like a cat does, and fire is gonna blast out again from his feet … and we’re gonna LAND UPRIGHT just like we never took off at all?  IS THAT WHAT YOU’RE SAYIN’ MISTER … AND YOU WANT ME TO BELIEVE THAT?”

To which Elon, simply shakes his head yeah and sort of mumbles out … just in the way that only Elon Musk can … “Well, yeah, I think you got it … but you’d also have a big bubble over you and the horse to keep in some air for the trip so you didn’t suffocate.”

At this point the Cowboy pulls out his trusty six shooter and takes aim … and because he is an honest man, simply says, “Mister, or Elon, or whatever you want me to call you while I’m shooting at you …  I’m gonna count to 10 and then start SHOOTIN’ … so if I was you, I would directly head away from me and RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN … 10 … 9 … .”

At which point Elon does in fact realize the futility of trying to explain a SpaceX rocket to a cowboy sitting on a horse in the year 1830. And does indeed, get up and WALK AWAY FAST … well, if it was me, I’d be running, … but anyway … come back to today, this time … 2018 … February …

And, as you yourself can verify, SpaceX rockets do in fact exist, and if you watch the videos, do land that way.

But, the thing about SpaceX rockets is, they truly don’t have any practical use, today or in 1830. You may have some great dreams about some future in space, but really, what good are they for you right this minute, this day, this year, this life … what good are these rockets for you personally. None, unless you perhaps work for the company.

However, some technology breakthroughs, rather some breakthroughs can have immediate benefit for everyone, for Everyone. And not like an iPhone or Facebook, but real benefits other than just … well, keeping people apart so they can live in their own little worlds.


So what has this got to do with me … well this …

I realized a technology breakthrough … of sorts … well, not just of sorts, but a very specific breakthough … one that won’t take billions of dollars or tens of thousands of people to build or use … in fact it is already built and available and practically ready to use with just a single limitation … and well a mind barrier of each person too who can’t believe it could be so simple … and when I attempt to explain the breakthrough … well, people literally do one of these four things …

  1. They get looks of fear on their face and literally, call the cops on me … LITERALLY, just like tonight. I had the cops called on me tonight … really. NOT the first time.
  2. They ask me, usually quite politely but firmly … to leave, right away …(which I ALWAYS do, and DO immediately upon being asked or told, because I’m not trying to cause trouble, I’m trying to figure out how to explain a technology breakthrough … A BIG ONE, like a spacex rocket back in 1830)
  3. They do nothing except get looks of total disgust and disdain on their faces, cross their arms and pretend I’m not there, stop talking to me, and with high hopes that I will just go away. Which I usually do rather quickly, but apparently never quite quickly enough, because I talk too much, and once again failed to take the Cookie Lady’s direct advice to stop talking … (but am writing, and need real material, not mde up bs like most books or articles … hope, I’m giving you the full monty … figuratively speaking … cops, listen, I keep my clothes ON)
  4. They listen a bit (like mennonites and amish, and black folks, and for whatever reason lesbians … and that’s a weird one for me, that I just can’t figure out … but also business owners also tend to listen the most. and these people at times consider the implications, ask a few questions or so … then go on with life.  AND so do I … I like the people in this category the most, the ones who will at least entertain me for a few minutes before wanting … to well, shoot me like the Cowboy in 1830 in the Elon Musk scenario above. My theory is these people live closer to the truth, and that’s why what I’m saying doesn’t hit them so hard, I mean the words don’t jar their sense of mind as much …

to: myself … FIND CATEGORY FIVE PEOPLE … perhaps Lutherans … hmmm …

to: The cops, the law enforcement officers, WHO I REALIZE ARE DOING THEIR JOBS … and I’m not complaining about it … NOPE. Please do your jobs as you see fit … please.

But … about the cops … as it turns out … I’m really a harmless engineer who is simply trying to delve into people’s values and morals, in an attempt to understand how to explain this technology breakthrough.

So for them, these people who do call the cops on me, at times for them anyway,  it’s a mentally brutal sort of word exchange. This happened tonight, and it happened the other day with the Buddhists in Hoagland, it happened with Baptist Preacher a couple weeks back … and likely a couple more too that have slipped my mind now.

But what should I do?

Should I simply give up? Should I just push this technology breakthrough aside?

Well, I’m a persistent guy. I realize I will make mistakes on this path … but also realize the importance of it … so a few brushes with the law, especially when I have NO ILL INTENT WHATSOEVER … well, I guess its just gotta happen, though I certainly don’t want to waste their valuable time. I’m trying to NOT break any laws, and do not want to break any laws, even the ones I can’t find written on the walls, or on student commons where I looked for signs that said “students and faculty members only” but found none, though perhaps I just missed the signs.

Now, for the cops, have to say, so far they’ve been rather cordial. In fact the Dep. Sheriff who contacted me tonight, used this site’s contact form to write to me, … in part …

“I need to speak with you reference an encounter you had with some college students today.”

Very cordial indeed, and he left contact info too. Very professional.

ALL TRUE … from start to finish … ALL TRUE.

And in fact, I did walk into the student commons of a nearby university, walked around until I found someone who looked like they would talk back to me, and found a young woman who was just sitting down and setting up her computer. And she agreed to let me talk, and as we talked, two of her friends arrived and joined us.

However, I apparently offended these beautiful young ladies, offended them so much with my questions, and statements, that they called the cops on me, after I left.

In fact, when I left, I recalled the story I’d been telling them about the Cookie Lady who when I asked, “Should I keep on talking?”. she answered firmly, “No.”

So, I recounted this story once more, stopped talking. Stood up and put on my jacket, gathered my things … and was literally walking away, when one of the ladies, Hannah, simply asked, “Are you leaving now?” And I couldn’t tell if she was saying this with a great relief, sort of as in ‘whew, glad that is finally over …’ or if she was saying it more like ‘hmmm … wonder if there was something there … other than a weird long gray haired dude who obviously talked to much??? … ‘. But apparently, and I dont know for sure, she was looking for a short time when I was distracted so she could make a 911 call, obviously FEARING FOR HER LIFE … because, well, because I dared use the word ‘sperm’ in a sentence. Or … well, you’d have to ask her I guess.

Also, likely I’m not welcome at that student commons because, well, I’m not a registered student or faculty member, rather just a member of the public who walked in that day, and then walked out … on my own free will. The ladies never once asked me to leave, not once. But did call the cops on me after I left … and so it goes …

Again, to the cops … not trying to cause trouble … please read above again, and I don’t plan on going back to this local university for more chats with anyone, well, at least not until Hannah graduates, and she said she is a senior, so perhaps in the fall, I might make another attempt … because, well, it was really fun … but not for them.

However, after leaving the university, drove over to Steak n Shake and sat with a business owner and his wife, and we had a similar sort of conversation. But remember, business owners (people who BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES and thus are somehow much more able to hear fantastic things, simply because of all the fantastic STORIES THEY DO HEAR FROM THEIR EMPLOYEES ABOUT WHY THEY WERE LATE FOR WORK OR DIDN’T SHOW UP AT ALL … you know, the abducted by alien stories and dog ate homework stories … these people are good at listening and then whittling away fantasy until it becomes just  the facts.) will let me go on to … well, at least until they finish their burgers and get up and go. But, we also got into a good chat and it seemed to me, the business owner and his gal, upon leaving the restaurant … were actually holding hands … and during the talk, at one point, as I was delving deep into their values of love and value of one another, they did in fact look each other in the eye and realize just how valuable they had been to one another, and a moment of true love I did witness between them and WOW, when you give a drop, AN OCEAN comes back on you … and that is a MILLION times better than ANY orgasm, and I DO THIS MANY TIMES A DAY AND IT DOESN’T MAKE ME TIRED like orgasms always did. The man shook my hand as he left and we parted … friends I think. But he seemed more friends with his gal, than when they first set down … but … that’s just my imagination perhaps, but again, that business owner was smiling practically the WHOLE TIME.

From here went to Applebees and Buffalo WildWings, where no one was interested in talking with me, got 3 refusals. Then drove to Starbucks where one couple said no, then a couple young girls, one of which identified herself during our talk as a lesbian, did agree. And we spoke for about 40 minutes. This lesbian also asked, when I again sort of abruptly got up to leave, “So are you going now …” but in her question, there was no boredom or fear at all … she was perhaps slightly interested, and we hadn’t even got very deep into the details. Slightly interested in the topic (and she had no makeup on either, and took the makeup spiel of mine better than some). But I still don’t get why lesbians can listen to this stuff of mine. But am sure there is a reason why.

Anyway, from here, I drove home but stopped on the way to shoot a couple games of pool in a smokey bar that I stop at from time to time, just because of the pool tables. Generally I hate smokey places … and don’t like bars much either … but they got GREAT pool tables … anyway, while there, yet again, ended up playing pool with … a woman who identified herself as a lesbian, but one with two kids.” And the amazing thing is she looked just like Hannah’s sister, practically identical to Hannah, at least in facial features.

Now at the end of the evening, after a few games of pool … and even before we started playing I told her specifically, I am a celibate and stopped having sex, and I mean it in the way of … STOPPED HAVING ORGASMS altogether, and I do so because it’s easy, and the rewards of this are AMAZING. Again, orgasms are a pleasure ripoff, once you understand something … that I’ve been trying to explain to people. But that’s not for here, unless you want to know, just ask a question in a comment, if you happen to read this far and do want to know.

Anyway, at the beginning of the evening, I met Hannah and friends, who literally did call the cops on me, and at the end of the evening, here is the beautiful lesbian literally thrusting a piece of paper with her name and phone number on it, and telling me to call her … “But only to play pool …” which seems like a really good proposition from my viewpoint, and her’s too because she will get a lot better in pool if she plays against me … but not for long, cause soon she’ll be the better player. And in return for her phone number, or rather at first, I gave her this blog address … if … she was interested that is … but she’s got a lot on her plate for sure … you know how it is.

Anyway, I would call that progress over the evening … from getting cops called, to getting really a really young and hot girls’ phone number … I”m 56 and … well, show wear and tear from my many travels and such … and she was like 22 max, wow. I mean, I almost wish I wasn’t celibate, just so I could … well, darn … I am. But again, she said she was a lesbian, so it wouldn’t matter anyway.

More to come …

 

p.s. What I am trying to explain currently is one of life’s mysteries … one of the greatest … and won’t have to even write it here .. because YOU know what exactly the one I mean, and don’t even have to write it here … just think about it for a bit … and THAT’S the one … yep. and I can explain it fully, with just one word … but … read the above again, if you haven’t figured it out yet … however, I REALIZE … I DO … reading this or anything else EVER AGAIN, IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF YOUR TIME … yep, I realize this … but do you … I think not … and that’s why it’s not a complete or even a bit of … waste of my time. See? … Don’t worry … you’ll soon seeeee … just sayin’ … it’s gonna be great … for EVERYONE. Yep. In a good way … a really good way…

When you Break Bread with another … la la la … NI-1 … NI-2 … connecting … you nourish their soul and you nourish your’s too …

NI-1 (father) writes … to NI-2(Son) ..
As you put it …. waste my time … writing shitty blog posts?
NI-2(Son) writes  … to NI-1 (father) …
Your choice.
Right for you.
NI-1 (father) writes … to NI-2(Son) ..
Exactly. Precisely too. Just perfect … see, you’re getting it, well, and got it too …

Right this minute, I’m gathering my stuff … to go out and meet some new people … and connect with them …  well write this minute I’m writing this, but glad you got it all figured out … anyway,  …
So I’ve got a bottle of water and a bag with some sourdough … because sometimes people really do want to break bread with you … figuratively speaking of course … and well if you eat bread, literally too … yep, it’s true.
So Larry taught me the sourdough doesn’t just nourish you … it nourishes the soul when you share it with another … a sorta side effect … that ends up being the main effect … when you break bread with another … 
And well … because this is right for me … and right as I write, right now … that’s just what I’m a gonna do … write now … but just a few more …
 …. la la la … said so poetically … 
but, with words …
I’m gonna, I’m gonna … IM GONNA HAVE A LOTTA FUN TODAY …
yep, just sayin’